Amazed

Praying Scriptue

2006-06-09T07:36:00.000-07:00

wow.. it has been a while since I have posted on this thing... I doubt anyone still checks it, but here I go

My heart is hurting for a dear friend of mine... a person who I would consider my best friend. They have fallen so far from Jesus that they don't even see Him anymore. They have gone from having confidence and stability in who God is; to not even caring or wanting anything to do with Him. And so for the past couple weeks in my attempt to help them.."fix the problem"... I have totally lost sight of the fact that this is not my battle to be won... This is between my friend and God... and when someone tells you that they don't care about you anymore and they want you to leave them alone...even though it hurts like no other.. it is best to go, and not look back. I am not saying give up... but God has just been showing me that sometimes its ok just to PRAY!

And in my humaness I have been asking; God how can I pray for someone who hurt me so bad? I dont want too... I start to and I dont know what to say... I just start crying because of all the anger and frustration built up inside toward this person. But last night at Encounter whem Matt was speaking he refrenced a verse that is my prayer for my friend:

For this reason I kneel before the Father, from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge— that you may be filled to the measure of all the fulness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen

Its amazes me to know that when I don't know what to say... God's Word though written years and years ago... can say it.

2006-04-25T11:36:00.001-07:00

So it has been a while since my last blog... And in all honesty the past couple of weeks life has not been easy, and I have been ignoring Jesus, and what He wants from me.

I am just scared to take that step. I have been so convicted lately about unity in the body of Christ. There is a situation between a couple of people that I love dearly that is not resolved yet, and I feel guilty about it. But I have never been really open to one person, but I feel I need to talk to them and tell them how I feel.

Biscuet's message Sunday really hit home. He spoke on Peter, and how Jesus asked him to step out of the boat and walk on water! And he asked the question would you have gotten out of the boat? He related it back to how we as Christians are scared to take a stand, and how we miss opportunities. I dont want to miss this one. I have never been one to stand up for myself... I tend to have the mind set if no one is mad at me then its all good, but lately that has not been the case. I ihave no peace about a situatiion... and I hate walking into church trying to worship and focus on Jesus and feel the awedul tension! I cant take it anymore.

So.. Hopefully God will provide me the opportunity to talk with a particular person, and give me the courage for once in my life to tell them exactly what I feel and not what I think they want to hear.

Other then that life is good.... school is almost over... work is amazing! The NFL draft is this weekend! YAY! A little nervous for all the guys but oh well! Hope you all are doing amazing! Good luck on finals!

2006-03-07T14:19:00.000-08:00

God has been speaking to me through this song so I thought I would share the lyrics with you!!

"Made to Worship"
By Chris Tomlin

Before the day, before the light
Before the world revolved around the sun
God on High, stepped down into time
and wrote the story of His love for everyone

He has filled our hearts with wonder
so that we will always remember

For you and I were made for worship
For you and I were called to love
For you and I are forgiven and free

When you and I embrace surrender
When you and I chose to believe
When you and I will see
Who we were ment to be

All we are, and all we have
Is a gift from God that we recieved
Brought to life, we open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King

Even the rocks cry out
Even the Heavens shout
The sound of His holiness
So let everyone sing out
Let every knee bow down
He is worthy of all our praise.

2006-03-07T11:44:00.000-08:00

When I get bored at work I start to think... like right now..

During my quiet time this morning I was reading from the book Lord I want to know You, it was talking about God as our Lord. And it fit right in to everything I have been dealing with the last couple of days. If I am not in total submission to my Father then God is not the Lord of my life. I have to give everything to Him, and rely totally on Him.

Thats so hard for me to do. And even when it comes to submitting to authority I must trust that He knows what He is doing, and obey those over me. But letting is go is hard. I recieved an email today and the last line said, "in the words of Joe Dirt, 'Keep on keepin on'" Keep on keeping on... continue to fight for the joy that Satan is trying so hard to take away... Matt's talk at encounter has been so real lately..
" This JOY that I have the world didn't give it, and this world can't take it away"

2006-03-06T11:50:00.000-08:00

I have been put in a situation where I must let go of someone who has been one of the biggest encouragers in my life. And it is so hard. It is indescribable the way it makes me feel. I don't know what to do, and it is like people don't want to understand me and where I am coming from. They see it has a quick fix solution, just pretend like they don't exist and everything will just disappear. But that is soo hard for me to do... just pretend that they are not there. Especially when we have the same friends, and they are becoming part of the same college ministry I am involved in. Am I suppose to change who I am just to obey others wishes? That just doesn't sound right to me. But those are the messages I am receiveing from those in control at the moment. I shouldn't go places or do things that this person is involved in, "because it just doesnt look good"! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! I was here first!

I honestly feel that Satan is attacking here. Well actually it is obvious. And some just don't see it. The body of Christ is about unity, community.. and Satan will do anything to keep that from happening. Honestly I can't take much more of all of this. I honestly just want to go crawl under a rock for a while... ok maybe a small island with 2 palm trees and a hammock would be better but still... I KNOW THAT MY GOD IS BIGGER THAN ALL OF THIS!! I just have to let go... and let Him be in control, and that means obeying those in charge. Submitting to authority one of the hardest things to do!

Oh! I would like to ask all of you to pray for Mike McLaughlin, he is one of the football players, and one of the most hard working respectable guys ever. He tore his ACL and will be having surgery this week! This is one of the hardest things for a player. Pray for healing, and for him to keep his focus on God!

2006-02-27T13:24:00.000-08:00

Just thought I would share some lyrics with you!! I am not sure who sings this, but DJ sang them at Uprising one night... and I love it!!!

Come & listen,
Come to the waters edge all you who know & fear the Lord.
Come & listen,
Come to the waters edge all you who are thirsty, come.

Let me tell you what He has done for me.
What He has done for you, done for us.

Come & listen to what He has done,
Come & listen to what He has done.

Praise our God for He is good,
Praise our God for He is good,
Praise our God for He is good,
Praise our God for He is good.

P.S. NOT WHAT WE HAVE DONE, BUT WHAT HE HAS DONE!!

Not to us, but to Your name be the Glory!

2006-02-26T21:00:00.000-08:00

I never knew that the title of my blog would become so real to me.

AMAZED that is what I am feeling toward my Father right now.

BROKENNESS -- fractured or shattered.... the destruction of confidence in self -- suffenciency

Tonight have just been searching for some scripture or something... dealing with this... and the Lord led me to 2 things...

Isaiah 63:9
In all their distrerss He too was distressed, and the angel of His presence saved them. In His love and mercy He redeemed them; He lifted them up & carried them all the days of old.

HE TO WAS DISTRESSED... are you kidding... when we are distressed over out own little problems... He too, the King of Kings, the Creator of the universe is distressed too! WOW!

I found an article on a website and it was saying that we have two options once we face brokenness... one is despair.. and the other is dependence on our Heavenly Father!!
Here is what it says:
To become dependable channels of God's power requires deeply learning two spiritual realities. The first is our own powerlessness: "By myself I can do nothing" (John 5:30). The second is God's power: "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" (Phil. 4:13). When we embrace our own powerlessness and throw ourselves in dependence on God's power, only then can we experience for ourselves the great paradox Paul discovered: "When I am weak, then I am strong" (2 Cor. 12:10).

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

This whole situation came crashing down on me tonight to the point I was literally praying/ yelling at God telling Him to take it all away that I can't take it anymore. But in my time with Him tonight I know that this part of the process... taking all that I have so that He can be #1..!

"May the God who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow Christ Jesus, so that with one heart and mouth you may glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ."
Romans 15:5

That is my hope for this whole situation. That what satan has tried to tear apart; through our Faithful God unity will come.. and the 2 individuals can stand next to each other (one day) and glorify their Father together as ONE!

2006-02-26T16:22:00.000-08:00

MY AMAZING DGROUP GIRLS!!!

So you always here me talk about my Dgroup girls well here they are! They have been the biggest blessings to me over the past 2 years! It has been amazing to watch them grow in the walk with our Father!

There are pictures from the Winter Retreat 2006 Girls/Boys football game! And yes my girls kicked booty. And we did it with grace and style! Hey 2 years in a row and counting!! 21-14... the AU Football team did help their amazing coach out with some plays! :)

" I am a princess because my Father is the King of Kings!!!"

I went into the whole Dgroup thing thinking that I was going to teach them about my Heavenly Father. But I was wrong, I have learned so much about our Jesus from them. Their faith in Him is out of this wold. And is such a witness to me and others. When times get hard they run to Him. And when I mess up they offer encouragement, and continue to pour out their love and prayers for me. They have honestly been the biggest blessings ever! I am so excited about watching them grow into young women of God!

"A friend is one who strengthens you with prayers, blesses you with love and encourages you with hope."

"If you weep, I will weep with you. If you sing for joy the rest of us will lift our voices too. But no matter what you feel inside there’s no need to pretend. That’s the way it is in this circle of friends. In a circle of friends. We have one Father. In a circle of friends we share this prayer. That we’ll gather together no matter how the highway bends. I will not lose this circle of friends" Point of Grace

2006-02-23T21:52:00.000-08:00

I keep hearing the phrase "time is a healer", and yes that may be true that with time things get easier, but time doesn't really heal anything. From my experience, and let me know if I am wrong, but when I don't deal with something up front, it gets pushed down farther and deeper to the point I refuse to bring it up to the surface again. Basically, I wont deal with it I will just pretend its not there.

I wish people could or would understand that true healing and forgiveness in this matter comes from the Lord Jesus. Through Him are we able to forgive one another, and be healed. I have just seen to many situations lately be left unresolved. I see Christians who need to step out on a limb and ask someone for forgiveness, and yet they don't. I am talking to myself here as well. It just really frustrates me!!

Anyway... I ask for prayers to bind Satan from a certain situation. I see his hand at work, and it disgustes me. I see him causing people to run away from their on Fathers presence, I see him causing people to treat people in ways that these people (who dont have a mean bone in their body) have never done before. He is causing confusion, and anger.

But then I see my Jesus, and His wonderful grace and mercy. I see His love being poured out in more ways then one. I see healing, and I see a bright future. I was thinking today about if I could go back, and change everything would I? And in all honesty the answer is NO! If I hadn't gone through this I would not be where I am right now. Flat down on my face with nothing to give at all; standing in the presence of my Father saying what now? I have nothing to give. And in all honesty it excites me, but at the same time I am scared and terrified. But the words of a dear friend come to mind. Jesus has me in His arms holding me like a baby! What comfort I find in that. It is the bottom, but you know there is only one way up from here. And I pray that as I am going up that His glory will be shown, and that people dont see me, but they see Him.

You know sometimes God has to take away everything you think you are, just so you can get a glimpse of who He is.

Sorry about all that... as you can tell I have alot on my mind! I love all of you dearly, and thank you for your prayers and encouragement!

WOW!!

2006-02-20T21:01:00.000-08:00

Praise You Father for being who You are...
For being You...
the God of 2nd chances...
the God of love
and peace...
the God of never ending...
Grace and Mercy...
the God of forgiveness...
and the God of love....
the God of wonder...
and majesty....
the God of Creation...
and the God of life...

You Jesus are my...
Provider... my Healer...
my Love... my Redeemer...
my friend...
You are my future... and
my encourager.... and
the giver of all that I need.

I sit here in awe of Him. I don't anything in this life, but Him. He is all I need. I pray that I can claim that every day... Especially during the hard times. I want to look back on all that has happend lately, and be encouraged. Knowing that He was right there with me through it all. He never left... and the hold Satan had on me was conqured!!

" The greatest love that anyone could ever know... overcame the cross and grave to find my soul."

2006-02-14T20:37:00.000-08:00

Ok, so I have "blogged" everyday now for 3 straight days... I know kinda obssesive, but it's so great to get what I am thinking out of my head... There has been alot going on....

So, I had the most wonderful Valentine's date ever... LAUREN FULLER.. if you don't know her you are missing out.. ask me and I will be glad to introduce!!

Anyway... so I went to community groups tonight, and I just sat there because God was totally speaking to me, and it wasn't until the car ride home that it began to all make sense...

I realized that I define myself by the things that I do... like I am Stephanie the college student, the daughter, the youth leader, the whatever...And that is how I have been or trying to fufill my purpose in life by doing all those things. But when one of those is taken away, like it has been recently... I am not that person anymore... But tonight we talked about our purpose and how it is not about what we do... Our main purpose in life is to glorify God... and I can do that whether or not I am a DGroup leader ... I can still live out each day to Glorify Him. Tonight one of the girls in my group said or read this:
God's greatest glory is when we do things through Jesus. Because Jesus is
God's greatest glory!!

Have you ever been talking to someone and say something that you know didn't come from you?? Ok well if you havent that just happend to me. I was talking with a friend about this whole situation, and I just got this peace about the whole thing. I have learned more about myself, and have seen my Heavenly Father work more in this past week then ever before. And if I am not given back my position as a Dgroup leader that is ok. Because I dont think God is finished with me on this situation yet. I think He has alot to teach me. And if that means giving something up temporarily that means so much to me... I am ok with that. But, then again if He shows His mercy, and gives me my Dgroup back that will be great too. But either way I am going into it with a new attitude and out look. That is not about me filling my purpose, but that it is about glorifying Him above all else.

God is most glorified, when we are satisfied in Him. John Piper

Be to do
- not-
Do to be!!
In His Mighty Hands As Always!

PS: I absolutely love my Peak House girls!!

2006-02-13T19:53:00.001-08:00

A frend of mine sent me this email the other day! It is so encouraging to see how God works... even if He has to use the IRON BOWL!!!

Hey Stephanie!I told Bro. Chette the very abbreviated version of this story today after church - he said it really fired him up, and I hope it does the same for you.
My apologies if I've told you this before..A girl named Rebecca grew up in rural Kentucky, a town you and I will never visit in our life, a place called Good Night. It's a small quaint country town in the Kentucky foothills, and Rebecca was the only daughter of hippie parents who did drugs, partied, went to every Woodstock convention possible - you know the type. Rebecca rebeled against her parents, really kept to herself, wasn't spiritual, didn't go to church, and tried to advance herself academically. She has a brilliant mind, and used it advantageously. Her senior year, a friend invited her to church for a revival meeting, where she was saved. She was never an immoral person, but the belonging she felt in the body of Christ was enough to get her over problems at home, and she packed her bags, full scholarship in hand, and came to Auburn for college.

I met Rebecca her junior year here. She was your average Christian college student. One day while we all were hanging out at a friend's house, Rebecca told us she felt like she was being called to missions. It took me by surprise, but I was fully behind her, and was sad after she graduated to see her go off. She said she felt called to go to a people called the Arab-Swahili. They live in East Africa (Kenya/Tanzania). 99.9% Muslim, there is no known Christian witness in this people of 4,000,000+. She teaches English at a University there, and develops relationships to try and work in Christianity. If she is found out, she risks extreme persecution, expulsion from the country, perhaps even martyrdom. In her first 15 months overseas, she began to slowly build bridges.

But the realization of living her second Thanksgiving, her second Christmas, away from her family and friends in America was almost too much to bear. In late November, needing some encouragement, Rebecca went to an internet cafe late at night, got online, paid money, and listened to the radio call of the Auburn/Alabama game. Encouraged by the final score, Rebecca went back out, and, within a few weeks, the land of no believers now had 3. The hope is that a church will be planted by year's end.. amazing.It blows my mind (and Chette's) that an Iron Bowl could do that. I guess God works outside the lines so much more beautifully than between them.

Itsn't HE, The Great I AM Amazing!!!! WOW!
I think that deserves a BIG War Eagle!! I still believe God is an AUBURN fan! hahah!
LOVE YA'LL

2006-02-12T17:38:00.000-08:00

God continues to wrap His love around me. While in Sunday school today we were reading over Hebrews 11, and I just happend to look over at the next page and see these words from my Father:
" My son/daughter, do not make light of the Lord's discipline,
and do not lose heart when He rebukes you, because the Lord
disciplines those He loves, and He punishes everyone He accepts
as a son." Hebrews 12:5
vs. 7 Endure harship as discipline; God is treating you as sons/daughters. ... our fathers (earthly) discipline us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in His holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.

My prayer is that I will continue to grasp and believe that my Father is putting me through all of this for my good. I just don't see it now, but hopefully that will become real to me. If you ever hear me talking about the situation negatively, I ask you to remind me of that truth.

The last line really hits home. That is all I pray that out of this whole situation for Gods peace and rightousness to be seen by all.

One other thing that encouraged me tonight is a quoat from the book I am not but I know I AM... if you havent read it... it's a must:
" God knows you better than you know yourself. He knows just how small and frail you are. He knows your just one person, and a tiny one at that. Hi knows all the things you are not -- and He made you that way for a purpose. That's why He has never asked you to be more that you are -- little you with a great BIG God!!"

I hope all of you are doing great. Keep me updated... Thanks for all the prayers and encouragement. Remeber that God is GOOD all the TIME!

War Eagle & In His Mighty Hands!

2006-02-11T10:20:00.000-08:00

OK I know I am a bad blogger... Over a month almost 2 and I finally decide to update....

Alot has been going on... you know like the old saying goes when it rains it pours. Well that has definetaly been my week. But still through trials the strength and the glory of my Father has shown in more ways then one.

My friends have been there, and have continued to cover me with truth. I am so blessed to have had many shoulders to cry on.

One thing I have learned from this whole ordeal, is that Satan will do anything to keep you from sharing God. He attacks at the heart litterally. He will feel you with lies, and almost ruin everything you stand for and believe in. He will even make you doubt the Creator (thankfully I have amazing friends). And still God is there.

You know I have no idea why things happen. They just do. But I know from this whole experience my God prevailed. Satans hold that he had on me and others is gone.

I ask for continued prayer over this whole situation. I know most of you dont know, but please be praying for peace, my D-group girls, and for me to know that God works for the good of those who trusts Him!

"You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is stradfast, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal."
Isaiah 26:4

2005-12-20T11:15:00.000-08:00

So, over the past few weeks... I have felt so lonely... I would literally stand in a room of people and feel as though no one cared. I was going through a tough time, and felt that again no one cared... That is over with now, but it relates to what I am about to talk about...

I was reading "Captivating" by Jon and Stasi Eldredge and came across this passage
"Most women diefine themselves in terms of their relationships, and the qualilty they deem those relationships to have. I am a mother, a daughter, a friend. Or, I am alone. I'm not seeing anyone right now, or my children aren't calling, or my friends seem distants. This is not a weakness in women-- it's a glory. A glory that reflects the heart of God."

I am sitting here at work pondering that last line... feeling lonely is not a weakness; it is a glory that reflects the heart of my Father. My Father someone who loves me no matter what, and even when I turn my back on Him He still there... My Father is a relational being, just like me... He loves to sit and talk for hours.. and yet I might give Him a couple of minutes a day... My Father wants to know all my hopes and dreams, just like how I love hearing my friends and family's... He wants to know my fears...

I am reminded of the the verse that says " I will boast in my weaknesses for when I am weak He is strong."

When I am lonely and feel there is no one to turn to.. there is someone, my Father, and through my lonliness his strength will provail.

2005-12-13T14:04:00.000-08:00

Sorry... it has been a month since my last both, and boy has life been hectic!!

School is finally coming to end.. I have one more final tomorrow.. it should be an easy one.

Football season is officially over, and our Bowl game is quickly approaching! As well as recruiting season...

Wow has this year flown by... I can still remember the first day of class.. I swear each year seems to go by faster... I dont know if I like that or not... I want to stay in college as long as possible. I dont think my daddy would like that too much though!

Oh well another year is almost over.... I am will be working on year number 20 in a couple of weeks... WOW that makes me feel old... I will try to start "blogging" more regularly now that life is calming down!

I hope everyone is doing well! I love ya'll and War Eagle!

2005-11-28T11:03:00.001-08:00

Well, I havent written in a while... I had a wonderful Thanksgiving Break, and I hope all of you did as well...

I ended up going to Barnwell, SC to visit my Dad's first cousins... what an expierence to visit relatives you have never met. It was a ton of fun though, and there was of corse plenty of food... I think I gained about 100 ppounds!

Anyway... I am at work... So I have to get some work done... I will write more later!
Luv ya'll & War Eagle!

2005-11-28T11:03:00.000-08:00

2005-11-21T13:57:00.000-08:00

Just thought I would share this with you...

Bear Bryant goes to heaven (I know, just hang with me on this one) and St Peter welcomes him at the Pearly Gates. He says he's going to take Bear to his new home in heaven. On the way there, Bear notices the largest and most beautiful mansion he's ever seen sitting on top of a hill. It's made of gold and as he gets closer, he notices that there are Auburn flags flying from the top of the columns. St Peter then points to a small, humble house at the bottom of the hill that has an Alabama flag flying out front and tells Bear this is his new house. Confused, Bear turns to St Peter and says, 'I don't understand, how did Shug get such an incredible house yet I only get this little house?', St Peter smiles and says, 'Bear, that's not Shug's house, that's God's house!'

War Eagle!

2005-11-21T12:14:00.000-08:00

WHAT A GAME... this post deserves to be in ORANGE and BLUE!! hahaha

WOW!! 11 sacks who would have thought... it was amazing... and I am so excited for this years Seniors... they deserve it, what a great way to go out!! I am going to miss those guys.
28-18... WAR EAGLE!!

Anyway... What an amazing time of worship I had last night at Uprising... I went with alot of burden and heaviness on my shoulders... and honestly I am not sure where it is coming from... for some reason I am down.... I feel like my Spiritual life had become sooo routine... got any advice??? Like it has no meaning.. which I know is totally false... because I can look around and totally see God working in so many ways and so many people... who knows.. it is just one of those times I think all of us go through! All I can do is trust that God knows what He is doing.. and know that it is all right not have it all togather....

Well, I am at work... and honestly I am quite happy to be here... I only had to work if we won on Saturday, so I guess and I handle it! Nothing to exciting going on around here... just sitting and waiting to see what bowl game we get into... we did split the SEC West title with LSU.. so that is exciting.. we are also getting ready for recruiting season!! That is always alot of fun... new players to get to know and have to keep up with!!

Anyway.. I better get some work done! I hope all of you have a great Thanksgiving... and remember IT'S GREAT TO BE IN AUBURN TIGER.... WAR EAGLE...

QUOTE OF THE WEEK:
"Obviously we are not as good as people though we were..."
Brodie Croyle (Bama QB)

I will post some pictures from this weekend later!! Love ya'll!

2005-11-17T14:24:00.000-08:00

So, it is Thursday before the Iron Bowl... and let me tell you while I am at work I feel like we are doing something really bad... like building bombs or something... the way security is around this place!! And how everything is so hush hush!!

Anyway! I am sooo ready for Saturday... the team has looked really good a practice.. and most everyone is healthy! And I made some players some good luck cookies CT, Dev, and Hobbs you owe Jesse and I... so hopefully they will work... they seemed to have worked for T! Anyway I predict Auburn 48 Bama 10!!

I saw a funny joke today on theauburner.com (great AU site check it out):
An Auburn fan walked up to a Bama fan and said "Man I wish I was a maggot?"
The Bama fan was stunned and said "Why would you want to be a maggot?"
The oh so intellegent Auburn fan replies "Because I would get to live off of a dead Bear for the next 3 decades like you have."

All I have to say is WAR EAGLE!!! and See ya at Toomers!!

2005-11-14T11:24:00.000-08:00

Hello Everyone!
I hope you all had an AMAZING weekend!!

How about those AU TIGERS... That was the best game I have been to in along time. Plus it was fun to hang out with my Camp Grace Peeps... plus spend some time with my AMAZING Auburn friends.

I am sitting here at work... everyone has quickly turned their focus to this weeks game against Bama... You can never celebrate too long in the football world. For the first time ever there is a sign posted on the office doors that say, "Keep out authorized staff only".. I guess the coaches mean buisness this week! haha!

Anyway... I am at work... so I should probably get some work done.

War Eagle & In His Hands!
Steph

2005-11-12T01:37:00.000-08:00

So, I have officially been a wake since 2 AM and cannot go back to sleep.
Well, I decided to read "Lord I Want to Know You." The chapter was on "The All Sufficient One"... When I think about I see that God has been suffiicent through out my life...

As a female, I long and dream for a man to hold me, love me, and protect me. And God does that. El Shaddai, " The All-Sufficient One."..

He was there during high school... when I felt all alone; He was there during a bad relationship... and even though I kept running from Him... He kept on pursuing me... and when I finally gave into Him... He held me and provided comfort to my hurting heart.
When I felt out of place as a Freshman... He provided a community full of love and acceptance... and gave me a place to totally learn what it means to truly worship Him. This summer at camp when I felt I had given all I had to give to those kids, and my patience were running low... He provided scripture... " When I look up the mountains where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord God Almighty." Whenever I felt I had given all... I was able to look out my window at the mountains and know my God would provide... The past couple of months with the uncertainy of my moms health... God as provided comfort and healing... they are 99% sure my mom doesnt have cancer! What a blessing... And God has provided me with words for Brittany Rabren. I have to admit when I first found out about her dad... I was scared.. scared because here I am her Bible Study leader... what am I suppose to say? God reminded me that He is in me and that He will provide me with the words if I just rely on Him! What an AMAZING God we serve!

Alright its time to try to get some sleep... I leave for Athen, GA in 2 hours! WAR EAGLE!!! and In His Hands!
Stephanie

2005-11-11T12:27:00.000-08:00

Hey!
WOW, Sorry I don't keep this thing up to date.... it has been a CrAzY week!

Well we can start with last Saturday! My boy Tristan ran for 160 yards against Kentucky! I was very excited... so his reward was 160 Cookies.. I will have to tell you that story later.

I also decided to crack my thumb... I get to wear this really cute and stylish.. I might add... brace for the next 2 weeks! UH.. you know I never realized how much you use your thumb! So I have learned to be very thankful for it! That can be a life lesson right there. You never know how much you depend on something till its gone... or in my case unuseable (is that a word)??

My Dgroup was AWESOME this week. 2 of my girls did the lesson. They talked about Job, and how God allowed Satan to take everything he had away... but yet the first thing Job did was praise God! Brittany and Taylor did the lesson, and for those of you who dont know Britt's dad has cancer... so be praying for them... and she was able to share her story... It really impacted out DGroup and brought all of the girls closer togather. I went into teaching this DGroup last year with the idea that I was going to be able to teach these girls about the God I love, but I think I have learned so much from them... each week they teach me something new!
I LOVE MY DGROUP! Our moto this year is " I am a PRINCESS because my Father is the King of Kings." and our verse is " the King is enthralled with your beauty from within!" My girls have been such a blessing!

Well work has been INSANE as well... We are in our final 2 regular season games! Can I just say that I love my job, and that it is GREAT to be an AUBURN TIGER! Tension is high... but the team is excited and ready to go. We just need a lot of prayer and a little luck on our side.. so here is the deal:
We need to BEAT UGA this weekend... Bama needs to beat LSU... and then we need to beat BAMA... then we will play UGA in ATL for the SEC Championship... and then win that and hopefully play West Virginia in the Sugar Bowl in ATL! So for the first time in my life... I will be silently pulling for Bama!
This week we play UGA in Athens... and I am sure you have all heard that is the "oldest rival in the south" and I am pumped and ready to go... yes I will be there cheering my Tigers on. I have to say they have supported me through these uncertain times this past month... constantly checking on my mom and lifting her up in prayer...

God is so good to me! I can see Him all over the place... WOW!! So anyway... the team just left, and I am at work bored! Oh well this gives me time to reflect on my week and see all the blessings that God has given me..

War Eagle and in His Mighty Hands!
Stephanie

Continue to pray for my mom and Mr. Travis Rabren!

2005-11-03T14:55:00.000-08:00

I hope all of you are doing wonderful...What a great week it has been! NO test.. I got to hand out candy to the kids in my neghborhood.. Tristan is going to get a shot at running back this weekend... and the doctors couldnt find anything wrong with my mom... keep praying for her they are doing one more round of tests!

Last Thusday at Encounter we were blessed with the music from Rita Springer... I just wanted to share with you the lyrics to her song
"I have to Believe"
I have to believe that He sees my darkness
I have to believe He knows my pain
I have to lift up my hands to worship, worship His name
I have to declare that He is my refuge
I have to deny that I am alone
I have to lift up my eyes to the mountains it's where my help comes from.
He said that He is forever faithful
He said that He is forever true
He said that He can move mountains,
if He can move mountains,
He can move my mountain,
He can move your mountain too.

WOW! What an AWESOME God we have. A God that can and is our everything. Ask a question and He can answer it.

Am I alone? No, because God said," I will be with you"
Does anyone love me? God says that He is love.
What about tomorrow? For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord.

I could go on and on... But I am kinda hungry! How great is the GREAT I AM!

Love ya tons & War Eagle

2005-10-31T15:08:00.000-08:00

2005-10-31T12:10:00.000-08:00

Well this is my first post so we will see how long this thing actually goes...

After a wonderful weekend of spending time with my family, Christy (yes! she is back), and some friends; it's time for another week of school... I am thankful that it wil be alot less stressful then last week! 3 test in one day is never fun! And work shouldn't be too bad since we are playing Kentucky! Shout to Steve Gandy for an AMAZING first start on Saturday, which by the way included an interception!!

Well I am at work so I should probably at least attempt to look like I have something to do! I hope you all have a great week!